SAVING MR. BANKS?

Saving Mr. Banks?

I used to think as a child when I was a youth, but now that I'm an adult and have seen, felt and experienced so many things, I do think differently about all those past issues.

I could never understand why a person would take their own life and thought they just must be crazy to some degree. I was wrong of course, and clearly see that now. I understand why someone would reach for or do an outrageous act when seemingly no other options have worked for them in a world that cares nothing about others for the most part.
Oh yes....of course we HEAR everyone say how much they care, but they never, ever lift a finger to do anything that's meaningful or full of love. And sending a stupid smiley face to a person without hope is less than nothing I'm sorry to say. Why not just scream at them "I'm so happy and your so miserable you loser."

When you're a loving, kind, sensitive person, out to hurt no one, in a cruel, cold world looking to devour people like that, and take everything they can from them in the process, it just wears you out trying to live a good kind life.

When you've tried every single type of treatment to fix or cure an illness and it goes on for years with no success as our medical field just charges you for one treatment after another until your bankrupt and they've all  become filthy rich while you still suffer every moment of the day, it can take a toll on any of us. We CURE nothing in medicine these days, but simply experiment by trial and error methods of drugs to help control some of the misery while the pills just add additional symptoms for us to deal with and financial ruin knocking at our door.

Even the things that appear of far less importance ring loud and clear for me, like the lack of love for example today. To just find one good friend that will actually stay with you or someone that falls in love with us is a gift almost un-felt by newer generations. I'm not sure if it's better to be alive and unloved or in heaven being loved by all and for all time. The latter has some merit I think at times, but still I can never use that option as I can still help a few more people and some more animals yet before I go.

The suffering of animals all over the world while we people just go hunt them down and torture them or shoving old folks in homes for the aged just to get them out of our hair while we stab them in the back with the sword of rejection because we just won't let anything interfere with our highest rated prize and that's our precious schedules, or TV programs or our plans to be entertained in life.

Our corporations led by our corrupt filthy government that makes us all feel worthless as they pay us minimum wages and withhold benefits so we can't send our kids to school or go on vacation or keep the lights on adds to our misery and feelings of emptiness. While all the while our leaders rake in BILLIONS of dollars and live like kings and queens and in ways we can't even dream about. The top 400 rich people in the U.S. now have more wealth than the next 275 MILLION AMERICANS!!! This is a shameful nation as never before seen.

I'm a decorated soldier and can't get decent medical treatment and once more...no one cares,  and LEAST of all our uncaring corrupt government that lets it continue on like this and THEY caused this problem to begin with. Oh yeah I forgot...every 5 or 10 years they act outraged on television for two weeks and are "shocked" at what we endure at the hospital facilities and yet NOTHING changes but the date, and the number that are suffering.

And as to what this has to do with Mr. Banks in that wonderful movie Tom Hanks starred in? Well....maybe being a dreamer all your life is the best thing one could be. Perhaps looking at life too closely and realistically will not only burn our eyes, but sear the happiness from our very souls and leave us feeling alone...unfulfilled and with no hope in a world that could care less if we live or die and in fact...better we die so they can grab the possessions we left behind is more the truth. They actually bitterly FIGHT for our things and care little for the one that passed away.

That movie moves me to tears each time I see it, as it points out how almost all of us fight terrible pain and suffering inside in spite of how normal we seem to act everyday and believe me it is an act. But that act and hope is sometimes all we have left in a world that hurts just being alive in it, where once it was never like that just a few years ago. Some pain actually helps and strengthens us, but when there's nothing left BUT the suffering like it is today, and fighting for money is all we seem to do in life, then I for one am ready to depart this world of pain and misery and hope beyond all hope that the God story and the Bible are not myths, but real true facts and one day......I will be happy once more. As I've said many times before and is my motto in life....."One day..........I shall be free", and that phrase is all too often all I have to hang onto in life. Sometimes it's all I have. If not for God and faith I would surely not be here today.

This isn't my world anymore, and hardly a bit of it is recognizable today compared to my younger days, and frankly I've had about all I can take without love or support of any kind. All I seem to have is hope and trust in the God that created me and I'm saved, and maybe....that's enough is my heartfelt desire even if not in this world, then the next is all I can hope for.

And to any and all of you that are thinking of giving up........NEVER .........EVER let these clowns win, and know that good days will follow the bad as well, and one day you'll laugh and feel the sun on your cheeks or the tears from a child being born or a great movie being watched like "Saving Mr. Banks" or something else beautiful happening as it always does in this world. Never let them have enough power over you to ruin a good person like yourself.

I never knew life could get so bad....so up-side down in such a short time, and how the youth of this world will survive even more of this is beyond me. Oh yeah, I forgot...they'll just go on face-book with their 400 "friends" and get help from all of those idiots I guess in times of trouble huh? What a total joke and disappointment this society has become while the rest of the entire world passes us by like were standing still, except for war of course....that we're experts at.

Most people say that money is the problem today or the other guys religion or politics or whatever, but truth be told.....it's a God problem this world has today, and the lack of paying any attention to Him are my thoughts that's the real problem.

I truly wish love, peace and happiness to those that read this, or any of the good people they know.

May love come to all of you....dennis